It is so tough. How am suppose to forget everything in few weeks or month or year? Things that haunted me in my mind. It was so scared to have my first panic attack in office.
"Please Eric. You promised me to find a solution but not this ways. Pleas." I said.
"No" He said.
I was grabbing a bottle of medicine on my hand. My mind was blank. A little voices whispering in my mind "Just take the whole bottle will make you feel lots better, just take it. He doesn't care and no one cares anymore".
A night where teacher drove us around. The places, the things we used to do, the things he used to says to me. It was like I need to go thru all the pain by myself. The fear that I can't say, the feelings is more than just that.
I feel anxious easily than before. I feel insecure with everything surround me. Thank you for putting me thru this and everything.
I am not okay. I am lost. I have serious anxiety and depression.
-khai
Anxiety
memories can never be erased, i know it is hard, but believe me, although people say time heals, the scar will remain, but you have a long way to go in life, so who knows, remember you can't see your future, but you can always hope for the best, maybe you still haven't found someone who is destined to be with you, so don't ever think about suicide, have faith, my prayers for you, and i am sure you will definitely find someone who will truly love you....
ReplyDeletemeanwhile, talk with someone, i am sure you have friends, sometimes pouring out your feelings to someone close with you will definitely help...
take care and bless it be.....
hey, just saw your comment.. thanks a lot....
Deleteglad to see your reply,hope you are doing good,
Deletebe strong...
take care and bless it be....